Sorry for the lack of contact - Update

Today I am 29 weeks pregnant and things are going well. My pelvic pain is down from a 100% to 10%!!!!!!! This as you can imagine is amazing. It has had a huge impact on my life and my brain, I am out of the awful cycle of periods that I was stuck in. Which means I have been able to plan and put things in the diary, we even went to Portugal for two weeks holiday. Whoop whoop!


My vulva pain is still there at the moment so for me pregnancy hasn't really changed this although the skin around my clitoris hasn't cracked for a while :-)


I have been absent for a while as I am treating the time while I am pregnant as my healing time so I have been keeping a low profile including not reading the support groups that I am normally very active on. I am giving my body time to allow my central nervous system to calm down.


At 14 weeks pregnant I started pregnancy yoga, which I love. I found it really tough to start with as I hadn't done any exercise for years and even though this is gentle, I had lost a huge amount of strength from being ill over a long period of time. Yoga really helps me with breathing and connecting to my body and baby. I cannot speak highly enough of the yoga teacher, Muriel, check out her website. http://www.mumuyoga.com/


I have continued to work with Lorraine, pelvic pain coach, I blogged about her back in March http://www.radiantlifedesign.com/. I have found working with her very enlightening, I am much more positive and happy in life now and see things differently. 
One of the most beneficial things that I have done with her is to question some of the beliefs I held. I will give you an example, I used to say to myself, nobody understands what its like to live like this. But Lorraine questioned this with me and I realised that the people who also live in this daily pain do understand what it is like to live like this. When I used to think people didn't understand, it used to make me feel isolated, lonely and very sorry for myself. When I then realised it wasn't true and people do understand, I felt differently, I felt understood and not so lonely and sorry for myself. This was a very enlightening moment for me and I have had many since then.


I have had my 20 weeks and another 28 weeks scan and everything is good with the baby. It never ceases to amaze me that after so much surgery, pain and trauma that my body could go on to get pregnant and then grow a healthy baby. He seems strong if his kicks are anything to go by. The second trimester, I had more energy and stopped feeling sick so that was really lovely. Many friends have commented on my general demeanour as seeming different and lighter which was great to hear.
The third trimester, I am more tired and uncomfortable and finding it hard to sleep, along with heartburn, leg and back ache. But compared to the pain I was used to before this, these symptoms don't really bother me to much. I am just feeling really happy and lucky to be carrying this baby and can't wait to meet him.


Obviously with only 10 weeks left to go, I am thinking more about the c-section and going back into hospital but I am working with all of my doctors to gain the best outcome and looking at other ways to help myself. I have been reading and have bought some cd's on Natal birthing so will update you on how I find them.


I hope that everybody is as well as possible and as always would love your feedback and to hear your experiences.


Lily Lou x